Music Update

So Neutral Milk Hotel's "In the Aeroplane Over the Sea" is the best thing I've heard in an incredibly long time. Why didn't I know about this? How did it exist without me finding it?

Music

So after about six years of listening to nothing but slow, soft, usually melancholy music, I think I'm ready for a change. Maybe the past two or three years of not being overly interested in music have geared me up for a switch. I sometimes hear music via my friends, but it's hard to listen while other stuff is going on. I want something a little less soft, sometimes more fun, but still sometimes sad or melancholy. But here's the thing: I haven't really listened in so long, I don't even know where to start. Here are my criteria, and I'm begging for your suggestions:

1. It has to be sincere. Whatever it sounds like and whatever the lyrics are, I've gotta believe the singer.

That's it. A single criterion. So please, your suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

Things You Never Knew About George Washington

This is ridiculous.

If I Were Real

So I'll just come right out and tell you because you're not here and it won't seem like I'm giving you an unbearable burden by letting you know that I have actual, real-live feelings: When I came to this place, I had no idea what I was getting into. It's just. so. hard. And not hard like writing papers was hard as an undergrad, or hard like work can be hard sometimes, but hard like I might not be able to do this. I know I can do the work, but why do it at all? I often forget that I'm a real person, and that other people know I'm a real person, and that somewhere, someone in the world actually cares that I'm a real person.

What I miss most of all about having close friends around is that reminder that I'm alive, and that I really am the way I think I am. Being alone so much of the time leaves me almost entirely without a sense of self, which is made more difficult since I'm also trying to figure out who I am without my father and my religion. It's difficult not to be self-absorbed here, but those times when I'm most focused on others are the times I start to lose touch with reality. This place is not reality. I will be gone in four months and probably never see anyone here again.

And yet...

Still not a real post

I'll really write at some point, but those of you who have played the original Super Mario Bros. might enjoy this.

OK Seriously

I'll seriously post something soon, but I smiled at some of these atheist bumper stickers:

1. JESUS SAVES...You From Thinking For Yourself
2. The Family That Prays Together Is Brainwashing the Children
3. "Worship Me Or I Will Torture You Forever. Have A Nice Day." -God
4. If There Is No God, Then What Makes the Next Kleenex Pop Up?
5. INTELLIGENT DESIGN: Helping Stupid People Feel Smart Since 1987

I just think they're funny; I don't necessarily agree with them. But I probably do, for the most part. Just kidding. Or not.

I'll post for real soon...